Wow it feels like ages since I've written here, sorry guys but its another personal one ...
For the past two weeks I've been working in Aberdeen answering calls and filing for a family friend's company. It's been a bit of a rollercoaster really- I start at 7am which I am still finding tough! But then I finish early afternoon so it could be worse. I am staying with other family friends so when I come home after work I pick up their three kids from school, give them dinner and read them bed-time stories. Feel quite grown-up really!! Not really seen many friends or done anything very exciting so really looking forward to finishing in two days and really getting into the Christmas spirit!
Since I've been by myself quite alot I've been able to think about things that I normally only really think about in the evening just before I fall asleep. It's funny because I haven't really been recognising that its Christmas so soon- I think I am becoming immune to the Christmas songs and lavish decorations up here in Aberdeen! Instead, I've been thinking alot about New Year and moving on into 2014. Naturally, with thinking about moving forward into a new chapter in your life it always means reflecting on previous ones. 2013 has been a successful year for me in many respects- passed my driving test, more than halfway through my university degree, travelled to the other side of the world by myself and made friends with people from so many different countries. However, I have also done things that I am disappointed with myself by. I don't want to say that I regret them as I don't think that it is healthy to constantly regret previous mistakes, but I recognise where I have gone wrong. I am really looking forward to moving on into 2014 and seeing it as a completely clean slate. No history, no previous experiences weighing me down- but instead making me a more confident and experienced person. Yes, if I went back in time now I would do many things differently, but I can't. I am sad in some respects as I feel that I have lost some important friendships, but maybe thats just the way it is meant to be.
When I was in Indonesia I became really interested in Buddhism and the ideology behind it. Everything happens for a reason and life is too short to hold grudges or treat people unfairly. Who knows what you'll be in the next life.
Merry Christmas, I hope it is truly wonderful and that you are surrounded by your loved ones.
